Only about 15 days left in this institution, of which i have written so much in past one-and-a-half year.. I have showed my dislike towards this place, i missed my Delhi a lot.. I missed the happening culture.. I missed carefree frens, who wont sit n study throughout the day.. I know i missed so much of my old life..
But now as i look back, i feel i am going to miss the quiet life i have been living since i joined here.. I feel so much mature, i feel old in some sense, i feel grown up.. I feel detached from some relations, i feel elated to realize i'll have my first salary in my hand soon.. I feel a mixture of joy and nostalgia.. I know i'll miss my frens from here.. Initially i never thought i'll be able to make so many friends.. Yesterday i spen 90% of my farewell time in clicking pics with all the people i made frens with.. i did not even have a decent dinner :D i was so absorbed in getting every one's pics clicked..
It seems I am watching my small world with different eyes now, everything is just so different now.. I had my share of crushes, tears, smiles, pride, enthusiasm, sharing, dances, love, chocolates :), chats, night outs, studies, projects, assignments, friends... Now its time to say farewell to all !! Now as i try to visualize my life through the window, i see so many new things, new horizons, new challenges.. but yet the feeling of loss of such a wonderful time will be carried by me through some time to come..
window to the new world
Crazy Week
Last week was crazy :) Had lots of fun at home.. went out for lunch on sunday and ended up with spending whole evening out.. Mom went crazy too, she was expecting me back by 4pm and i entered my home quite late.. She wanted to catch up with me i guess.. She was angry at how could i go out and not spend time with her, especially since i am home for such a short time.. She is so sweet really :)
Monday was everyone's holiday (2nd oct) so started the day with yummy food, bread pakoras and aloo ki tokri.. Went out to watch the dussehra celebrations in the evening.. And i still cant believe myself that i stood on a 4 feet high allevation around flowers n plants, to watch the show.. :) There wasnt much room for me to stand with many people already standing there.. still i managed somehow and din fell.. :) that was crazy of me.. :D vaise people did crazier things.. like climbing a tree and sitting there.. And bringing some high chairs from their homes.. Some people carried their children on their shoulders to let them view everything..
Next day i went on shopping..again.. And u know i was shopping till 1:40 pm, arrived back home at 2:02p.m.. ate lunch and packed some stuff i bought into my bags by around 2:15pm.. and was at ISBT by 2:37 to catch a 2:40 bus.. :D thankfully a frens and his fren were accompanying too.. So i did actually caught the bus.. They chatted non-stop and fought like children.. It was nice to see them do that.. Heard a lot of good songs on their phones.. Slept at some point of time and i hope din bothered the fren's fren much, with my head on his shoulders while i was soundly asleep :D
After coming back, some days went in trying to find a proxy (which sometimes works, sometimes dont).. no blogspot working at my insti.. no orkut working too.. blogger dashboard opens though :).. i can still read all your blogs thru feedblitz, though cant comment on them..
Yesterday was my last test before diwali and today i have a project demo.. uske baad total aish.. :)
Monday was everyone's holiday (2nd oct) so started the day with yummy food, bread pakoras and aloo ki tokri.. Went out to watch the dussehra celebrations in the evening.. And i still cant believe myself that i stood on a 4 feet high allevation around flowers n plants, to watch the show.. :) There wasnt much room for me to stand with many people already standing there.. still i managed somehow and din fell.. :) that was crazy of me.. :D vaise people did crazier things.. like climbing a tree and sitting there.. And bringing some high chairs from their homes.. Some people carried their children on their shoulders to let them view everything..
Next day i went on shopping..again.. And u know i was shopping till 1:40 pm, arrived back home at 2:02p.m.. ate lunch and packed some stuff i bought into my bags by around 2:15pm.. and was at ISBT by 2:37 to catch a 2:40 bus.. :D thankfully a frens and his fren were accompanying too.. So i did actually caught the bus.. They chatted non-stop and fought like children.. It was nice to see them do that.. Heard a lot of good songs on their phones.. Slept at some point of time and i hope din bothered the fren's fren much, with my head on his shoulders while i was soundly asleep :D
After coming back, some days went in trying to find a proxy (which sometimes works, sometimes dont).. no blogspot working at my insti.. no orkut working too.. blogger dashboard opens though :).. i can still read all your blogs thru feedblitz, though cant comment on them..
Yesterday was my last test before diwali and today i have a project demo.. uske baad total aish.. :)
Blogspot blocked
Hey people, blogspot has been blocked at my place.. people have gone mad and i dunno why along with orkut, blogspot has been blocked.. I have tried numerous proxies and almost none works.. the ones that did got blocked abt an hour later.. :( network admins have got paranoid i guess..
And btw i will still keep posting if blogger keeps opening :D and will be active as soon as i am out of this place :) which is just about 2 and a half months away :)
And btw i will still keep posting if blogger keeps opening :D and will be active as soon as i am out of this place :) which is just about 2 and a half months away :)
LOTS of UPDATES!!!
For the first time in my life i lived in terror.. Not from terrorists but from wasps .. These are called yellow jackets/ tattiya / barraiya too.. They had built a hive in front of my room and the person who came to take it off just banged it witha stick and left.. and the day after was horrible.. they stung at people passing from the corridor and attacked them literally.. A whole bunch would stick to the leg and sting.. Four of my friends got the sting.. They were so angry about their homes.. and i kept myself locked in my room :( others could go to their rooms from another corridor but for me, whichever way i took, they remained always in front of my room.. that stupid person did so wrong by hitting their hive.. atleast they were peaceful before that.. anyways some people from pest control came and sprayed some chemical and took the hive away.. till next 2 days those wasps circulated in the corridor probably looking for their lost home.. i felt a bit sad for them.. but then we ve to see our safety too..
Yestarday night i went out with my family to watch ramlila.. i went to pitampura and i realised how crowded delhi is.. It took us abt half an hour to cross a strech of abt 1.5 kms.. and the crowd in ramlila ground was mind blowing.. so we didnot went to watch ramlila, instead we went to the food stalls and enjoyed the mela.. it was a sea of people.. to get food from stall to where my family stood, i took about 5 mins and atleast 20 excuse me's.. Though i hated how people threw stuff on ground like that, when there are dustbins placed avery 10 steps, i just loved the spirit and activeness of people around.. And i missed Delhi.. Everything & everyone keeps moving here, at a fast pace.. Though i love quite of my campus too but thats not what i really enjoy.. observing poeple, looking at how they all work even in the worst conditions is a marvel in itself.. not many people appreciate crowdy places.. i dunno why but i do.. i like to be in places where some activity goes on.. :) And did i forgot to mention the gorgeous food i ate yesterdat.. :D I so so so love the chatpata and masaledaar food (spicy food).. and especially the kulfi faluda :) ..
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Yesterday i came to delhi by bus and in front of my seat were my swimming instructors' brother and his family.. His children were absolutely adorable.. and i thought if i were to have kids they a\shd be like them :D For the first time i met a 10 month old baby who didnt scream , cry, and make their parents journey hell by numerous ways.. She was such an active baby and at the same time not violent types :D.. generally babies cry to go back to parents or someone they know.. she came to me and was their for about half an hour, playing with my earrings, making lots of funny noises, trying to sleep in my arms and smiling a LOT.. And her 6 yr old brother was a charmer.. I did counting with him.. to count 4+4 he had to use his fingers and after lots of thought process he came up with answer as 8!! I taught him some tricks to form birds from hands.. chidiya udana :) he took away a lot of coins from me and he operated mobile phone like i never could.. I was so surprised to see a him play with the phone like that.. he even knew how to click photographs from my cell, even though his father's model was a different one.. i wonder if children these days come to this world after learning everything.. they are so at ease with the technology... the next generation is a lot smarterthan us :)
Yesterday i came to delhi by bus and in front of my seat were my swimming instructors' brother and his family.. His children were absolutely adorable.. and i thought if i were to have kids they a\shd be like them :D For the first time i met a 10 month old baby who didnt scream , cry, and make their parents journey hell by numerous ways.. She was such an active baby and at the same time not violent types :D.. generally babies cry to go back to parents or someone they know.. she came to me and was their for about half an hour, playing with my earrings, making lots of funny noises, trying to sleep in my arms and smiling a LOT.. And her 6 yr old brother was a charmer.. I did counting with him.. to count 4+4 he had to use his fingers and after lots of thought process he came up with answer as 8!! I taught him some tricks to form birds from hands.. chidiya udana :) he took away a lot of coins from me and he operated mobile phone like i never could.. I was so surprised to see a him play with the phone like that.. he even knew how to click photographs from my cell, even though his father's model was a different one.. i wonder if children these days come to this world after learning everything.. they are so at ease with the technology... the next generation is a lot smarterthan us :)
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Yestarday night i went out with my family to watch ramlila.. i went to pitampura and i realised how crowded delhi is.. It took us abt half an hour to cross a strech of abt 1.5 kms.. and the crowd in ramlila ground was mind blowing.. so we didnot went to watch ramlila, instead we went to the food stalls and enjoyed the mela.. it was a sea of people.. to get food from stall to where my family stood, i took about 5 mins and atleast 20 excuse me's.. Though i hated how people threw stuff on ground like that, when there are dustbins placed avery 10 steps, i just loved the spirit and activeness of people around.. And i missed Delhi.. Everything & everyone keeps moving here, at a fast pace.. Though i love quite of my campus too but thats not what i really enjoy.. observing poeple, looking at how they all work even in the worst conditions is a marvel in itself.. not many people appreciate crowdy places.. i dunno why but i do.. i like to be in places where some activity goes on.. :) And did i forgot to mention the gorgeous food i ate yesterdat.. :D I so so so love the chatpata and masaledaar food (spicy food).. and especially the kulfi faluda :) ..
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And since some time i have been chatting with a fellow blogger and something he told me yesterday kept me into some introspection.. He said, "Our thoughts dont agree much on so much we talk about..And you usually reply with more questions or laughter, i dont know how to reply to that and i feel a little uncomfortable talking to you".. These are not the exact words, but the meaning was this only.. About agreeing thoughts i know, two people tend to have some disagreements and we dont know each other much to really know we agree a lot or disagree a lot.. And about asking questions, well i know i ask a lot of questions..but never knew this could be taken as something uncomfortable.. And i was really surprised to hear the same thing about laughter.. i laugh a lot and i amusually genuinely amused when i laugh :) or i am genuinely happy :) About asking questions i think i can do something but dun think can do anything about my laughs.. :) i am happy and i reflect that.. so thats that :)
And since some time i have been chatting with a fellow blogger and something he told me yesterday kept me into some introspection.. He said, "Our thoughts dont agree much on so much we talk about..And you usually reply with more questions or laughter, i dont know how to reply to that and i feel a little uncomfortable talking to you".. These are not the exact words, but the meaning was this only.. About agreeing thoughts i know, two people tend to have some disagreements and we dont know each other much to really know we agree a lot or disagree a lot.. And about asking questions, well i know i ask a lot of questions..but never knew this could be taken as something uncomfortable.. And i was really surprised to hear the same thing about laughter.. i laugh a lot and i amusually genuinely amused when i laugh :) or i am genuinely happy :) About asking questions i think i can do something but dun think can do anything about my laughs.. :) i am happy and i reflect that.. so thats that :)
Life hurts..
Sometimes just a simple phrase said by someone, heard somewhere works its way into the deepset part of the heart and it hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. And nothing can be done. Except to wonder what to do and see around to get comfort. Then this feeling to get comfort, to feel cared for becomes a craving. A craving so great that it becomes out of control. The more its suppressed, the more violent it becomes. Every cell in the brains shouts something different, its a chaos. Just a chaos. Not just heart but mind too behaves capriciously. sometimes comatose, at other times drugged with madness. At those times, life hurts. And a lot.
Mirror Mirror, tell me all !!!
Have you ever noticed how integral part of our lives is formed by a mirror..I noticed this courtesy a full length mirror placed just near my hostel's water cooler. I was filling my water bottle and just noticed how everyone passing by never failed to peek a glance at the mirror.. or at themselves..What urges us gals to keep looking at themselves??
Even when they have just got up from bed and are in a mess.. still they would look into the mirror and smile at how relaxed they look.. *I do that :)*.. Girls almost always give a small touch up to their dresses in front of mirror even when everything was already in place.. Skirts will be pulled down (or up :D ) shirts and straps will be brought into right place.. hair will again be brushed.. make-up will be given a small touch up too..The funniest part being nothing will look the same after 5 minutes.. not a single thing.. yet we just cant give up the urge to do our best to look the best... You can always tell if the girl is going out to meet someone special, by noticing the time for which she stays in front of mirror.. & by how many times she come back to see herself in the mirror.. *hehehehe*
And by the way has anyone noticed how many time you go in front of mirror to check which accessory match with the dress or which colours suit my mood today?? That is such a girlie thing.. * :) * I have about 100+ earrings and still have to look at the dress and myself and the earring together to feel satisfied that they go well together :) and i absolutely love doing that :)
And i wonder do guys do anything like this?? standing in front of mirror to look at themselves??
Mirror shows just a reflection of how you look, i so hope it could also give a reflection of what you are.. "Looking at yourself in mirror isn't exactly the study of life".. Have you ever looked into a mirror with some questions for yourself.. some introspection? I have never tried it but have heard from a friend that its a nice experience..
And in the end a quite interesting qoute/question i found--
"Who sees the human face correctly: the photographer, the mirror, or the painter?"
And i sincerely couldnt come up with an answer..
Which type is ur's
*HOW YOU UNDRESS*
REVEALS YOUR PERSONALITY
Interesting observations by Psychiatrist Dr. Frank Caprio.He gives the following breakdown:
*/_HAPHAZARD UNDRESSER_/*
If you throw your clothes all over the house, you are a friendly,
life-of-the-party type.
You are: free with your thoughts and opinions, not caring much about
what others think of you.
*/_METICULOUS UNDRESSER_/*
If you remove each piece of clothing and put it away carefully, you are
a serious person who likes life very calm.
You are: comfortable with routine and you believe that the best way to
deal with life's problems is to prevent them in the first place.
*/_SHOES AND SOCKS FIRST UNDRESSER_/*
You methodically remove your shoes and socks beforeyou begin undressing.
You are: a perfectionist, a bit shy, observant, dependable, intense and
think before making decisions. You go about your tasks methodically,
with concentration. You know how to pay attention.
*/_SLOW UNDRESSER_/*
You take off the shirt and ten minutes later get around to taking off
your pants or skirt.
You are: extremely self-confident, intellectual, a deep thinker and
don't like to be hassled. Usually you like a lot of free time for yourself.
*/_FAST UNDRESSER_/*
You get out of your clothes as quickly as possible.
You are: concerned about others and what they expect from you but
you're worried about your own needs. You are family-oriented and stay
extremely busy.
*/_JEWELRY OFF FIRST UNDRESSER_/*
You take off your rings, watch, etc. before anything else.
You are: warm, thoughtful, sensitive and romantic.
*/_NEVER THE SAME WAY UNDRESSER_/*
You never undress the same way twice.
You are: a very curious, interesting person and you enjoy a broad range
of activities. You take risks and enjoy fun and adventure.
Interesting.. isnt it? :)
My type is -- jewelry off first undresser and haphazard dresser too.. no wonder my room is always in a mess with my clothes lying everywhere :D .. so whats urs?
REVEALS YOUR PERSONALITY
Interesting observations by Psychiatrist Dr. Frank Caprio.He gives the following breakdown:
*/_HAPHAZARD UNDRESSER_/*
If you throw your clothes all over the house, you are a friendly,
life-of-the-party type.
You are: free with your thoughts and opinions, not caring much about
what others think of you.
*/_METICULOUS UNDRESSER_/*
If you remove each piece of clothing and put it away carefully, you are
a serious person who likes life very calm.
You are: comfortable with routine and you believe that the best way to
deal with life's problems is to prevent them in the first place.
*/_SHOES AND SOCKS FIRST UNDRESSER_/*
You methodically remove your shoes and socks beforeyou begin undressing.
You are: a perfectionist, a bit shy, observant, dependable, intense and
think before making decisions. You go about your tasks methodically,
with concentration. You know how to pay attention.
*/_SLOW UNDRESSER_/*
You take off the shirt and ten minutes later get around to taking off
your pants or skirt.
You are: extremely self-confident, intellectual, a deep thinker and
don't like to be hassled. Usually you like a lot of free time for yourself.
*/_FAST UNDRESSER_/*
You get out of your clothes as quickly as possible.
You are: concerned about others and what they expect from you but
you're worried about your own needs. You are family-oriented and stay
extremely busy.
*/_JEWELRY OFF FIRST UNDRESSER_/*
You take off your rings, watch, etc. before anything else.
You are: warm, thoughtful, sensitive and romantic.
*/_NEVER THE SAME WAY UNDRESSER_/*
You never undress the same way twice.
You are: a very curious, interesting person and you enjoy a broad range
of activities. You take risks and enjoy fun and adventure.
Interesting.. isnt it? :)
My type is -- jewelry off first undresser and haphazard dresser too.. no wonder my room is always in a mess with my clothes lying everywhere :D .. so whats urs?
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