Thursday 27 July 2006

The photo tag..

Well, i have seen this photo tag doing rounds on many blogs.. so here am I.. tagged by none but still taking it up :D

Here goes many things most people dont know about me...

1. My Childhood dream..
I always thought of opening an art n crafts school.. right now i'm into totally different field, which has got nothing to do with crafts stuff :(

2. My future plans..
I Plan to adopt a baby some day :) There are so many children who dont get a decent enough life.. adopting a child brings difference to atleast one life.. i just hope i will become a gud mother :D Though i understand my husband might not be ready for this.. Not many people can accept someone else in their lives so easily.. Still i hope i can atleast help some kids in their education and upbringing..

3. Meditation
I am not too good in meditating and um trying to improve.. Since many things are revolving in my head, i cant maintain that silence ( in my mind ) for too long.. whenever i sit to meditate my mind wanders so much that i dun even come close to the act of meditating..

4. My weakness
I cry so easily.. its not that i'm not strong, but tears come naturally in my eyes and a lot for that matter.. i cry even while watching a movie, when no one else is crying :)

5. My best time-pass

I am a voracious reader and can (almost) read any book under the sun.. and maybe one day i'll have a personal library of my own :)

6. something i did today

Shopping.. yippie.. i've been going to shop a lot lately.. mostly to busy some things i need to take back to hostel.. So i've bought 5 T-shirts, 1 kurti, 2 formal shirts, 1 salwar kameez, 2 sandals, Rakhis for my brother, some colorful pens to gift them to my bros.. now just a few things more left to buy ( some tiny-miny stuff like earrings and a belt and some other accessories)
Saturday 22 July 2006

yaaawwwwnnnn !!!!! :)

I am soooooooooooooooooo tired right now.. dun have anything to write actually.. just feeling happy, satisfied, content, at peace with myself and a lot sleepy :)

I went out on a drive today with a close fren and clicked a lot of photographs too.. most of em wd not b 2 gud since they were shot from a moving vehicle.. lets c how they turn out wen i upload em on my laptop.. there were lot of people carrying kanvars.. they r returning from some holy place more than 150 kms on foot.. i dont know much about why is this particular trip taken.. will update soon with the pics i clicked..

And i know i havent replied to all your replies in last 2 posts.. i'll be doing that sometime tomorrow.. um lazy.. :)

anyways i better be going to sleep now.. i cant even type now!!!

Friday 7 July 2006


Today, i was talkin to a fren of mine and topic of discussion was universe.. :) Tthe universe is thought to be a space-time continuum in which all matter and energy exist. It is finite or infinite, no one knows.. Even this is not sure that the universe is a part of a system of many other universes, (multiverse).

Cosmic inflation removes vast parts of the total universe from our observable horizon, So it is probably impossible to observe the whole continuum. The part of the universe that can be seen or otherwise observed is usually called the known universe, observable universe, or visible universe. Research articles in cosmology often use the term "universe" when they really mean "observable universe". This is because unobservable physical phenomena are scientifically irrelevant. And so there is no agreement over wether universe is finite or not.

Think about it, We are no where near knowing where do we really exist? We all are so absorbed in our periphery that we dont even bother to look what lies beyond?

Now do u agree that there could be some micro organisms which will never come before our eyes.. suppose they live in a small place, say a sand dune in a remote area.. For them that is there world, would they think of something lying beyond there reach? And now consider we r in same position.. this universe is nothing but a ball in the hands of some giant kid and we r those tiny miny micro organisms..

Well i know this is sooo absurd thought, but when i was a kid and was introduced to this chapter called "The universe", i usually thought of all of us in this way.. :) i was an imaginative kid you see.. btw before i start going into my other equally imaginative stories, get back to track..

So we were discussing universe, where this world, this earth and our very own existence is just a small issue..
after i put down the phone, my maid came to me and asked me- "didiji, Its soo hot, Only god knows why isnt it raining this year?".. I told her its already raining in some parts of India and monsoon will hit our city soon.. "But the rain is happening in India, and we are in delhi. How are they connected?". And when i said "Delhi is the capital of India.. Its an integral part of the country.", She didnot believe me at once.. She lives in Delhi but she doesnt live in india !!!

So that was my free fall from The Universe to an ignorant mind..
Saturday 1 July 2006


Continued from here

Shikha slowly started to adjust into new surroundings.. She struggled in new role as wife, with new responsibilities and constant nagging from her mother-in-law.. Her discomfort grew, but she had nowhere to turn to.. Ansh was busy with his business.. Rekha was busy in trying to create rifts between the couple.. Meanwhile Shikha gave birth to a healthy child.. She was a mother before she turned 19...

Life is not fair to all, Some people get other people's share of problems too.. Shikha though tried to cope with eveything was slowly turning inwards.. in the shell of her bedroom.. She was not happy as she wanted to be.. but then who really is?

In her parents home, all was not well either.. seeing his daughter's plight Shikha's father's health kept on deteriorating.. He couldnt see her this way, but he wont do anything for her cos he was still angry.. She chose her own life, why should he interfere? Egos.. one really cant understand them wholly.. And one day he left this world from a severe heart attack.. Shikha not only lost her father but also her family's sympathy.. everyone else blamed her for this incident.. She caused him worries.. She made him ill.. She made her father die..

She cut herself totally from outside world after this.. She, her son were her whole world now.. occasionally Ansh would become too.. when he was free ofcourse.. He loved Shikha but recently he too got tired of her behaviour.. she was always upset or depressed.. And it takes deep love to accept one's partner in these conditions.. Ansh found it difficult to think of shikha in same way now.. She had not completed her studies and so couldnot find a job to keep herself busy.. Her mother told her straight not to get a divorce and refused to accept her responsibility.. She has already caused a lot of strife and should not be the cause of new ones..

After a few years shikha became mother again.. and at the same time gave in to depression.. She stopped responding to people.. She stopped smiling or crying.. She stared at walls for endless hours.. She stared at people as if they were walls too.. what went in inside her head was known only to her.. No one cared anyways now.. No one noticed her condition till once she fainted among relatives and was taken to hospital..

Her hospitalisation charges were not less but nothing what Ansh couldnt afford, yet he despised shelling off so much money on her.. Later her medication charges also pinched him.. But somehow as she recovered from depression, they started going out like in the past.. like in their courtship period.. They both went out on a trip to Mussoorie.. a small hill station.. Shikha thought of these days as her most happier ones.. But she never came back.. only her body did.. Ansh told everyone she died suddenly in her sleep.. When ppl saw her dead body, anyone could make foul play in this situation, shikha's face was all blue and her lips were black.. You would be expecting someone to take some action against Ansh.. atleast i thought so.. but it didnt happen..
Her mother refused to take any action lest Shikha's both children be left for her to take care of.. She did not want to take-in her own grand children.. But had no problems with letting them live with a murdrer..

Now was it Shikha's destiny to die at an age of 28?? Everything she suffered was because of just her one decision to marry a person she loved.. But was it her destiny to have a mother-in-law who expected a lot of dowry?? Was it her destiny not to live a happy life with her husband?? Was it her destiny to be blamed for her own father's demise?? Was it her destiny to have a mother who didnot wanted to take her responisibilty?? Was it her destiny to be taking costly medications?? Was it her destiny to be killed by someone she gave her life to?? Was it her destiny to leave 2 children who'll live a life of an orphan with a careless father??

If she had known what lays ahead of her in this marriage, Would she still have married Ansh?

This story i've written is a true story.. of a girl who lived next door.. And She was killed the day before i started writing this story.. i've always seen her mother as a shrewd lady.. but seeing her not take any action against Ansh was heartbreaking..

( Names and places have been changed )