I feel so detached these days.. Like i've got nothing left to do in this damn world.. I've got to do atleast 10 things.. yet i dont feel any inclination to do them.. i've missed last coulpe o dance classes too.. and daily i call up my tutor ( who's teaching me ceramic work on flower pots) to tell her i've not yet completed the task i was supposed to complete last wednesday.. I've not started preparing for my placement, all my yahoogroup mails are filled with ppl sending company papers.. I dont knwo wat to do.. i dont even feel like crying.. all i feel is numbness..
Just a lost soul with nowhere to go and nothing to do.. Today i called up 7 ppl to talk to and none of them was free.. :( then i started working with ceramic in which i lost interest within 5 minutes.. i trod in my balcony for a long time.. wanting something to ease my nerves.. i've never smoked in my life but then i wanted to.. like ppl use to do in movies.. like my father do when he is nervous..
I dont know wat to do.. i just dont know.. And i dont care!!