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last week went in too quickly.. And theory of relativity should be changed to "The more we want time to go slowly, the faster it goes and The faster we want time to pass, the slower it passes".. I cant believe i have spent two-third of my holidays already and come next thursday i'll be on my way to my hostel.. *sigh*
As to why i suddenly realised this- Yesterday at my dance class, i counted the classes i attended and *My tubelight got lit* i noticed 2 weeks gone *unnoticed*..
Yesterday i also started reading "conversations with god for teenagers" Though i am no more a teenager ,i am a grown up girl *atleast in age :)* i enjoyed reading it.. I have a habit of folding the page at which i like some quote or some paragraph.. And in the end, more than half of the book was folded.. If anyone was to see the book, It will look like some toddler has played a game on that :)
On Christmas, i got a gift for the first time in my life,A green jacket..
(i mean first time on christmas, not in my whooole life :-) )..
The sad part is i am not going to any party on new year's eve *sob*, and for a stupid reason that my bro have an exam on 1st jan, so i'll be in home and sit in front of TV and scold my brother to go n study..

A few days back i also read some articles on tsunami- 1yr later.. And which made me think we r so small in front of nature.. Nature constructs and Nature destroys too.. We can do nothing but be a spectator to her works and her moods..

[23/12/2005 14:00:42]

Do u know?

Do u know what This li'l angel boy is saying to the other gal angel???


This :-

kisses blown are kisses wasted..
kisses arnt kisses unless tasted..
kisses spread germs and germs are hated..
but u can kiss me babe cos i am vaccinated..

I recvd this sms a few days back n cdnt help but smile at this.. so sharing it with u.. keep smiling :D

Damn this cold weather!!!!!

I have caught cold :( its so very irritating.. to lie inside blankets and either sleep or read some stupid novel... i've got bored of this place.. i wanna go out of my home!!!!
vaise i did went for a movie on friday.. "bluffmaster"..1st day 1st show :) movie seems to lack continuity at times.. i'll say story is good but story-telling is not..best part abt the movie is ofcourse Abhishek bachhan(he is so damn sexy) and the unexpected end of movie.. i am so tempted to tell u the climax but i guess i shd not reveal it to u..
i had plans to go out yday too but this cold caught me :(..koi nahi there's always next time..

About Me

yahoooo!!!!!!!! finally exams are over... masti karne ke din aa gaye hai :) i'll be leaving late night nd 2rrw early morning i'll be home... and that probably means i'll be a li'l less online..

20 things about me... i am not tagged by any one but just liked someone else's "20 things about her" and since i've nothing to do till i leave in few hours, i decided to tell u all somethings abt me... so here i go...

1. I hate cooking.Though i can make many indian dishes, i loathe the time i have to spend in my kitchen, which i have regularly partly becos i am regularly reminded by my mom that u r a girl n so shd know how to cook and partly becos I believe cooking is a skill u need to survive in any place..
2. I love to chat on phone.The only thing my parents were happy about, when i left home to live in a hostel, was the phone bill.I can chat nonstop for hours, and my maximum record being from 10pm to 5:30am with my best fren.. dont ask me how i lived through the next day in my college..
3. I have a huge craze for earrings.I have a collection of 100+ earrings(i stopped counting after i crossed 80), which includes all colours, shapes nd sizes.. longest one 1" below my shoulders (which i never showed to my mom)
4. I like colours... all colours. and i cant say "this is my fav color".. evry color has its own charm and its own quality.. A bright color can brighten up anyday..
5. I have many frens in my life... and i have noticed, gals can never befriend other gal without a slight touch of jealousy and bitchiness.. i have just one gal-fren with whom i can share my felings.. rest all are guys.. n ofcourse they r there whenever u need help.. they can listen patiently, they can help monetarily :) they can help u in selecting the best gizmo :) n then they know how to handle other guys whom i dont wanto talk to :)
6. I love to dance nd party.. I can dance from morning till evening.. i've been going to dance classes since last 3 yrs nd i never knew dance can be so much fun.. i like discs and djs.. happiness i get after i dancing is comparable to the happiness of a child after having a chocolate or icecream :))
7. I looooove to go on a jog in baunta,near delhi univ north campus.. the lush green environment makes me feel so good.. fresh air is rarely found in delhi, so baunta is like heaven. and sometimes i like to see monkeys playing around.. child monkeys are a pleasure to watch.
8. My room is the messiest room in my home.my mom start yelling at me to clean it up whenever she comes upstairs to see my room..I recently put up a poster syaing "my room - love it or leave it", with ofcourse a show of how messy can a room get.. :)
9. I like evrything that is romatic.. romantic songs, M&B novels, couple dances, candle light dinners, heart shaped stuff toys etc.etc. I wd love to have someone in my life who likes to gift me something that will be useful as well as is soooo very beautiful, and not only when there is an occasion..
10. I like to give gifts and hand-made cards to evryone but *sigh* no one returns my effort.. i always hope someone will be thoughtful enough to gift me with something with no occasion at all..
11. I think i should change my 20-thing to 10-thing...Its difficult to write so much about ur self.. whenever i think i cant go on i'll stop this post..
11.(the actual one) I hate tea n potatoes.. sometimes i wonder what do ppl see in a cup of tea that they can drink it twice -thrice per day.. i dont even like the smell of it..N abt potatoes.. well ever since i have come to hostel, there's one thing that is always in our mess's menu... aloo.. and i dont wanto have another bite of it..
12. I cry easily.. I cry when i am upset.. i cry when my mom scolds me.. i cry when i dont get good marks.. i cry when i have lots of work to do nd i dont know how to do it.. in short i cry on every occassion when i shd be thinking my way out of that situation.. i eventually figure out wat to do but not before i cry.. :(
13. I sleep with my teddy bear.. well i am not a child and i dont feel scared alone..but i still like to sleep with my teddy bear.. i brought it with me to the hostel.. i even took it with me to the hospital when i was once operated for a minor ailment..
14. I like children..I may someday quit my job ( if i get one in future) and open a creche or a hobby school for children..
15. I have not watched television for last 2 months, and to my disbelief,now i dont even miss it..(we do have a tv and cable connection in our hostel)
16. I like to play a lot of online games.. I can spend my whole day sitting in front of computer and just playing games specially puzzles.. my fav site is playsite.com
Just 4 more to go.. mayb i'll be able to complete the list..
17. I dont know how to drive a car!!! and i do have a license (which was made when i actually drive d car, not the fake one) but its been so looong when i last drove it that um not sure i remember what to do with clutch,brake and accelerator..
18. Guess what vehicle i know how to drive!!! a bike.. well actually a bicycle :) that too cos in our campus v have to have one..
19. I love my papa sooo much.. :D mum's always scolding me :( and papa never do.. i ask him anything and my wish is granted.. and my brothers never forget to take advantage of it, i am the one to go to him in times of some trouble..
20. the last one.. I dont like chilly winters.. my cheeks become so swollen during winters that their color turns to tomato-red.. and i keep shivering almost all the time, even if i am wearing 3 layers of woolen-clothing..

Good night

its so cold tonight,the temperature must have touched freezing point.And in this cold cold night i lie inside my warm warm blanket. Trying helplessly to concentrate on the book before me, i tell myself "study bachu, nah to exam mein fail". No matter how hard i try, my mind wanders

"Hey wake up dear.. stop dreaming.. start studying", I tell myself again and start trying to sleep again.. oops study again..
ANYWAYS, good night and sweet dream

random thoughts

the irony of studying in one of prime engineering college of india:
throughout the semester i never got more than half an hour/day free for myself.. i stopped going for a jog.. i stopped doing my daily excercises... i stopped reading novels(i read just one here)..i stopped reading newspaper from first page to the last,just headlines now...all due to workload.. i hope i have not forgotten how to dance :)

and now when my exams r going on i had 3 days doing nothing except writing blogs.. commenting on other's blog and sleeping... wow!!! ah but after today's exam which is a lolipop :) i have 2 more exams remaining which r tough... so 2day s my last day of recreation till ofcourse my exams ends and i get back home..
home sweet home..and in addition i get--
my teddy bear..
spicy food.. not the bland ones like our mess's
no studies..
old frens..
movies.. considering there's not even one movie hall nearby..
popcorn :)
PVR priya..
noisy streets.. bustling with energy... its so boring(read quiet) out here..
radio mirchi..
lotsa stuff toys (in my room)...
no alarm clock..i'll sleep to my heart's content
fights with my younger bro.. :) best part being in home..
no worry abt phone bills..
ah...i realise home suddenly got a lot more value.. till now twas just a home..

[05/12/2005 11:23:08]

i wanna sleep

i just waana sleep...
n never wake up to this cruel world..

well i read this on someone else's blog n thought how come world is cruel? sometimes i agree life becomes difficult but howcome it becomes cruel? evry1 has choices to make.. u can decide to struggle instead of giving up hope.. u can try to come up even from deepest pit... all u need is a will.. a will to succeed, a will to make your life better, a will to never give up.. no matter where life leads to..

WHY

This i wrote some time back in my older blog.... on 9 november...

i just read an article in today's hindu newspaper.. there was an article telling that even when testing sex of an unborn child is illegal it still happens.. doctor says " jai shri krishna " if it is a boy and "jai mata di , puja karo" meaning its a girl and kill it... A women threw her child from 7th floor.. when asked dont u think it is cruel.. she replied that if she wd have lived she were to have same plight as her own.and she thinks she is doing that girl a favour.
i just hate the kind of behaviour girls get in this country... and the sex ratio in india will get more skewed if this continues. with dowry system and other social prejudices against women present in our society i dont think conditions can improve. even my parents worry abt collecting enough money for my marriage, which includes dowry for me.. My housemaid is so worried that she cd get a girl child and she doesnt want one.when i asked her why, she replied that u dont know how much money u have to spend on a girl and then u have to keep a constant watch on her unless she gets spoiled... i tried so much to convince her that girls are as good, but she has a biased opinion. and when u live in this society i think u tend to get biased on listening abt not wanting a girl child around u.
When i was in my school i thought this mindset was limited to labour class only and to my shock i was not correct. i saw a girl in my neighourhood who was my age getting married after a few days she got 18.. and when my mom asked her why r u marrying her so early she said "ladki jitni jaldi apne ghar pahunch jaye to hum chain ki sans le"..girl child is so often treated like a burden in our society. imagine how can a girl just completing her schooling be asked to take responsibility of a family and then is pressurised to have babies.. and isnt she being denied the education she could have got if she was not married?
sometimes i wonder if i was unable to get admission in my postgraduation, even my parents wd have tried hard to convince me to marry, then what wd have i done? they think 21 is optimum age for a girl to get married.. isnt marriage my decision and not my parent's? they find it odd that i dont wanto marry and i dont like to cook food or cleanup my room often.. they say it very un-girl like!!! but who says it is un-girl like? our society!
why cant society let us girls live in peace? why so many boundaries and restrictions? why should we walk on paths decided by our parents, family and society? why should a life of girl be defined by what she sacrifices and not what she does for herself?